Rubicon

The word for the week is: Rubicon

Rubicon: a point at which any action taken commits the person taking it to a further course of action that cannot be avoided. A point of no return.

I decided on this word because this word sums up my whole life at this point. I have the feeling that everything I'm doing right now is vital to my future and I'm so afraid that I'm screwing it all up. I can never go back to the person I once was, nor do I want to. Not all roads lead to where I want to go so I have to choose wisely and once that course is chosen I cannot deviate. It's very strange for me to be at this point in my life. Having direction is so new to me. I have been wasteful of my time for too long, the time to act, grow, and progress is now. When I look into the future I see a lot of potential. I just hope I'm up to the challenge.

I see my life as a garden. It's lush, vibrant, and alive. However, without tending the weeds overgrow and choke out the beautiful plants that you want in your garden. So far, I have not attended to my garden very well. Only the strongest of my desired plants have been able to survive the weeds. The time for pulling weeds and planting new seeds is now. I have a lot of work to do and I can never let my garden fall into disrepair again. I am truly at a rubicon in my life. My garden will be beautiful and orderly again but there's a lot of work to do.