I Did It To Myself.

Today I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and the worst part is... I did it to myself. I really hate it how sometimes the right choice is also the hardest one to make. I love Steven but this isn't working and I had to end it. I think the worst part was the fact that it didn't end badly. It would probably be easier to stop dwelling on it if it had. No ugly yelling and screaming, just calm and tearful conversation. I know I hurt him and now I feel like an evil witch. I really hope this isn't the end, he knows the way to come back if he should choose to. I just fear that he won't choose to. I can't even describe how much pain I'm in right now. I haven't seen the world without a rim of tears around my eyes since I broke it to him. I just wish the pain would stop. He knows that I will love him forever, which again, is something that's just making the whole situation more painful. Why does love have to hurt so much? I may have sent him away but he's taking an awful big piece of my heart with him.